When we have a cold or flu we slow down and take care of ourselves, but many of us don’t know how to pay attention to our Mental Health and personal Wellbeing.
It’s so easy to get so busy with work and life that you put those headaches down to just being tired, or feeling stressed over something and telling yourself that everyone feels that way in similar situations – that it’s normal.
But what if it isn’t normal? What if your body is trying to tell you something?
I recently felt myself getting anxious and nervous and couldn’t place why I felt that way. My life is relatively good, my job is good, I’m comfortable with myself, happy with the people in my life and generally consider myself to be a resilient person. So why was I feeling anxious? There were butterflies in my stomach like I was preparing for a major event – but I wasn’t. Having never felt that way before I could only liken it to a feeling of nervousness.
I don’t want to over-dramatize it; there’s lots of people who experience it much worse than me, it’s not like I couldn’t breathe and I didn’t break out in a sweat or start shaking or anything like that. It was a much milder feeling, in my gut, but new to me nonetheless and it made me feel unlike myself.
With so much emphasis on Mental Health and Wellbeing right now – I knew I needed to take some time to reflect and really pay attention to this unusual feeling bubbling deep inside of me.
It was here that I realised I hadn’t taken a good chunk of time (and enough of them) off work. This year so far, I’ve taken 5 days off work – I haven’t given myself recharge-time. And even though I don’t feel physically drained or tired, I know my mind, which is always very busy with things to work on or do, is probably longing for a break. The good news is I have 2 weeks off coming up and will definitely take some long weekends between now and the Holiday Season!
And with less ‘time off’, there’s less personal enjoyment – doing things that I really love to do. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy my job, but there’s far less stressful ways (even when it’s ‘good stess’) to spend my time. Which is why recently I’ve started posting on here more – I genuinely love writing, creative writing, my own thoughts with no limitations. Is it always my best work? Probably not. But it’s mine and I love it. The Kindle has made a reappearance in my handbag too – if I’m not writing my own stuff, I want to read someone else’s words!
I also realised I’d become a bit of a solo flyer – I enjoy my own company and like being left alone, but I realised it’d been a while since I really had a deep conversation or quality time with my friends. So over the past couple of weeks I’ve made much more of an effort to reach out to my friends and make sure I have plans made with them – it’s a lovely reminder that I really do have some amazing people in my life.
I like to laugh and recently discovered a great podcast ‘The Receipts Podcast’ which has made me laugh out loud several times as I’ve binge listened to them – it’s like listening into my own friends’ conversations and loving every second of each joke, opinion and the contagious laughters of the podcasters.
And just these little realisations and reflections have made me feel better. My issue is that I do busy myself with work and do not use up my holidays to give myself a breather and just recharge myself. And I know I do it – I just need to get better at making time for ME. Get some fresh air. Do what I want to do. Make sure I’m talking to people and laughing. Take the time to realise all the wonderful things in my life and not get so caught up in ‘being busy’.
As I get older, I get more confident in myself and genuinely like who I am. I’ve always been very self aware, but not so good at listening to myself and actioning the things that I should for me. That’s a learning curve that I want to focus on. It doesn’t sound great (and doesn’t look any better written down!) but I really do need to be more selfish and do what’s right for me – for my own peace of mind and wellbeing (without losing my empathy and care for others! – it’s a balancing act!)
Until my next upload, take care of yourselves! And don’t forget to follow my blog and check out my other socials and follow me there too!